I'm so sorry, I'll add you to my prayers.

I haven't yet had contact with Macmillan cancer support, I suppose my cancer nurse will see to that. Thank you for taking time to listen .I can understand your frustration at your husband but maybe he needs a hug too.

Hi Margaret, I'd say you are having one hell of a week. I am a strong person, even though I have my physical and mental limits. I would be focusing myself on those around me and making sure they are getting the right help and support to get them through this. But we seem to forget about ourselves and what help and support we need. Make some time for your thoughts and emotions even if it is just writing back to me. I struggle to cope with my pain and am mentally struggling with acceptance. My hubby is very deeply depressed and has been since childhood, there isn't much help for him out there and I have just been told that he has not developed through childhood as he should. Explains a lot of the behavioural problems. But I can't stand to see him so empty. I struggle with even talking to him some days as he is so numb. See, thinking more about helping him more than myself but think I have reached my limits. I hope you find a way to cope. I know the Macmillan nurses are fantastic and so supportive. Keep in touch. X

The Macmillan nurses have been very good, they come to my home and give me a shower, they are very helpful. Just this small thing takes the pressure of my family. Hugs to you all. X

The Macmillan nurses phoned me last week to tell me they would send me a starter pack to complete and they will visit me in two weeks time. They sounded very reassuring.